And I think I'm getting karmically dick slapped for some reason.

I don't think I'm deserving, whatsoever. But can I please catch a break? I'll start begging if I have to.

This has all the making of something awesome.

Because I know some parts definitely rock....

Yay!?

Once tagged by this entry, the assignment is to write a blog entry of some kind with six random facts about yourself. Then, pick six of your friends and tag them; no tag backs. This explanation should be included.


1. I refuse to eat cold chinese food or pizza. It's foul.
2. My dream car is a 1967 Shelby fastback...Eleanor. But in reality I'd call it something Celtic.
3. I always wanted to dress up like the sexy chipmunk jazz singer from those old Chip & Dale cartoons
4. I want to make my own comic book with Clayton.
5. I want to learn Romansch
6. I wish I went to Hogwarts and I'm heart broken I don't.


Ha now it's your turn vandal86carlottavaldezkrissykris31986bluevioletriotevilxevelynelle_diablo

I feel like I'm in a good place right now. Money is still very much a big issue but I'm just very happy where I'm at. Drama kind of flows in and out, but it always will and I can only do my very best to keep my head up, right?

It's weird with friends though. I will always love my core group of friends because they've seen me at my best and worst and regardless of our differences, I can say that I truly love my friends more than anything. But there are some people that you maybe you always thought you'd be close to, but you wonder if it's worth it to always cater to them. I have more than my share of people that I have to tiptoe around and accomodate and I'm unwilling(?) to let someone who I really did love hold our friendship over my head. Relationships work both ways and although I should apologize and I'm sure that I will, I know that they won't and things will always be different. I just don't appreciate things being held over me and people contemplating the worth of my friendship. I can only give so much and you either love me, faults included and there may be the chance that feelings are hurt. But how can one be unsure of a whole relationship because of a small slight?

I don't know what to do. Maybe I'm just stubborn like them, but i can't say that it's been eating me up inside and maybe that's a bad thing, but maybe I should let it go.

That's a lot of maybes.

Anyway, the point is I'm happy and I love my friends, whether or not they love me.

But mainly I'm happy.

I need to stop fucking up.

This is my break from LJ silence.

Let's see, what's new with me?

Target continues to be a colossal thorn in my side. I don't even want to get into all the ways that I loathe it.

On the guy front, life continues to be a mother fucker. Guy A is crazy and wants to be with me really bad, but I can't drum up any sort of feelings or attraction to him. Plus he scares me with his intensity and I feel sorry for him because I can never care about him the way he says he cares about me.

Guy B, I suppose, is karma for Guy A. He basically said that no matter how hard he tried, he couldn't find a connection between us. Which I sort of agree with, because there wasn't a real...emotional(?) connection, but I certainly felt a physical response whenever I was around him. I haven't been made to feel so good in a very long time. It sucks to feel that way for such a short time when you're not sure anyone will be able to make you feel that way for a long while. But although he and I shared some of the same wiews and feelings on things, it would've never worked out. Darn.

Guy C. Hmmmm. I'm thinking this will never come to fruition but he's a hella cool guy and I at the very least really enjoy being friends with him.

I figured out what attracts me the most about menfolk. Definitely back, shoulders and arms. I must be a true Taurus. There's just something about broad shoulders and a stong looking back that makes me melt....

Anyway.

I think I may have found a roommate, but I'm going o try and hit up mama for some help. I just desperately need to get out of this house and I hope somewhere in her heart of hearts she will find it in herself to support my decision and help me. God damn, if you do one good thing in your life for me, let it be this.

Oh well, hopefully things will start working in my favor. That'd be a nice change

<3 Sarah

I'm sure some of you have read a certain other person's post and if not, you prolly will soon enough. I'd love to keep my word to Kayti and back off, but I just want to make a few minor points.

*How many times now have you been "done with Livejournal" and "done with this town"? You really just keep disappointing.

*I'm kind of over all the comments you said about Tim, because those really just made you look like you were a tactless idiot. I dislike you because I think you're kind of a worthless person. It's not even so much that I think I'm a huge asset to mankind, or that you're a detriment. You're just neutral. You're a piece of asphalt, a grain of sand. I could continue with the analogies, but in short, you don't really matter to me. You mean nothing anymore, except now you're a huge joke to me.

*Let's talk about accomplishments. You left everything behind so you could move out and go to college and then drop out? You're right, I'm going fucking nowhere. Don't talk to me about being negative or complaining. Read the last year of your life.

*I agree that I shouldnt've have gotten involved in you and jenny. But then it became my problem when she came to me because you were harassing her. I would've done that for anyone. It just happened to Jenny.

I really don't have anything else to say, but most importantly, I just think you're a cunt.

So fuck you, fuck me, I'm a bad person and so are you, we both dislike each other and don't mean anything anymore, so this should be the end of all this mess.

...unless you decide to say something else, because that's your way. Ball's in your court.

Leave your name and:
1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll challenge you to try something.
3. I'll pick a color that associates with you.
4. I'll tell you something I like about you.
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest/funniest memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something I've always wanted to ask you.
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on yours.

You know you've had a proper birthday party when you wake up and your clothes are in different areas of the house (and wet!), people are MIA, and Alcohol bottles are littered across the counter.

I had an awesome night.

Trust me, my clothes came off against my will.

>=)

Do any of my dear sweet friend have the complete set of Georgia books they would be willing to let me borrow? I need them for a project....top secret, you understand!

Call me shambles, for that is all that I am.